My happiness meter is rising, one degree at a time. But it’s a different sort of happiness.
There is also great happiness when I am doing something I love that brings me a sense of accomplishment and success, and also when I am with those I love, my friends and family, making connections with people and being active in different forms of service.
But this type of happiness is something I’ve missed for a long time.
It’s the joy of being alone, with God. Doing the simple things in life, like cutting vegetables, or reading a verse and letting it float around in your brain as you stick out your tongue and taste its sweetness, sweet like honey.
Having the time to take a walk or simply sit still and do nothing, think of nothing. Breathing and soaking in God’s presence. Being alone and yet not alone…
I know this season won’t last forever. And it’s not meant to be. But this is my season of sitting in His shade.
“I delight to sit in his [Jesus] shade, and his fruit is sweet to my taste. He has taken me to the banquet hall, and his banner over me is love. Strengthen me with raisins, refresh me with apples, for I am faint with love.” (Song of Songs)
Yes, Lord. Let me eat and drink deeply now, so that I may be strengthened and equipped to respond in obedience when you call me out of this season. The time will come when I must arise to the challenge of whatever lies ahead.
“Arise, my darling! Come with me! To leap over mountains and bound over hills! Let us go to the mountain of myrrh!” (Song of Songs)
But for now, I will enjoy apples and raisins 🙂