I know it’s already 2017, but last summer God led me through a process that I’ve been meaning to write down for the last six months. I think it’s important to record the stories and lessons we experience, even if it’s just to remind ourselves over and over again of God’s goodness and faithfulness.
The story I want to tell is that of my journey from powerlessness to being Free & Responsible (one of Bethel’s core values). It was not easy learning this lesson (and I’m definitely still in the middle of it), but I hope that my account of this journey will bless you as it has blessed me.
“A Grand Vision”
On June 12th, 2016, I went to a coworkers meeting for our church’s young adult intensive school. Near the end of the meeting, one of our pastors began sharing her vision for the school. “In the future, I envision expanding to even more countries and starting new schools with specific focuses, such as creative arts! We’re going to do so much more; this is just the beginning.”
We were already doing six schools a year, 60 days a year. (And this wasn’t part of my job–I was just a very dedicated volunteer.) I couldn’t imagine what “more” would look like. I was exhausted just thinking about it.
I looked around at the faces of everyone, trying to decipher what they were feeling as they were hearing this—mainly because I was super confused by the emotions that were being wrought up inside of me. I thought, “Anyone else hearing this must be super excited about our pastor’s vision. It’s expanding the Kingdom and encountering the lives of young people all over the world… But why is it that all I want to do is cry?”
And not a ‘touched by God’ sort of cry. I wanted to crawl up into a ball and ugly cry.
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