Healing: Releasing Life not Powerlessness

Last week, I attended a Bethel¬†Healing Rooms meeting for students interested in being part of¬†the ministry teams.¬†I expected to hear a reiteration of Bethel’s main core values when it comes to healing¬†, e.g. healing is the right of every believer, God¬†wants¬†to heal you (it’s not about what you’ve done but what He’s already done), and, of course, nothing is impossible for God.

Indeed, they covered all those bases, but they also touched on a topic that I thought was very interesting. I have heard them teach about this before but never expounded in as clear a way as they did that day.

The issue that I’m talking about is the issue of¬†forgiveness (or dealing with¬†unforgiveness) as a¬†prerequisite¬†to healing.

I don’t necessarily agree or disagree with either side of this issue. I’ve heard many testimonies of people being healed after they were willing to¬†repent of their unforgiveness. I just want to share Bethel’s perspective on the matter, and I think they have¬†a really good point.

At Bethel, they specifically instruct their healing teams¬†NOT¬†to ask the person they’re praying for if they have¬†any unforgiveness that might be preventing them from being healed.

The reason for that is based on this fundamental¬†rule: Don’t project your¬†powerlessness on the person you’re¬†praying for. When we feel powerless, we feel the need to shift the “blame” of the situation–from ourselves (being unable to heal the person) to the person’s unforgiveness as the reason they¬†have not been healed.

The fact of the matter is, it’s not about¬†our ability to heal them in the first place. It is God’s. If the person is not being healed, we do not have to make up a reason for their lack of healing. As Bill Johnson puts it:

“Guard yourself from creating theologies around disappointment and unanswered prayers, to insulate yourself from the pain.”

Many times in Church¬†history, Christians have felt the need to create theologies around their¬†experiences of “no breakthrough” and disappointment (thus, the doctrine¬†of¬†cessationism was created).

If someone is not healed after you pray for them many times, just step back and say, “Okay, I quit. Holy Spirit, what are you doing here?” Don’t strive. Give it to the Lord and continue believing that He is the Healer. This is the tension of faith that we must be willing to live with¬†as believers.

Now, let’s¬†take a look at the ultimate example for healing ministry in the Bible–Jesus.¬†No where in the Bible does Jesus tell someone to sort out their issues before he healed them. That’s an eye-opener, isn’t it? The truth is, unforgiveness can prevent someone from being healed… but it doesn’t prevent us from healing them, because, remember, it’s not about what they have done but what God has done for them that counts.

Faith has a voice, and it’s voice is never condemning. It always releases life.

Finally, the key to healing is¬†focusing on JESUS, not focusing on our problems. Therefore, it’s not a good idea to get the person you’re praying for¬†to become “introspective” (that includes, breaking generational curses). We don’t want them to focus on inside them but to focus on the Answer, because the Answer is always greater than the problem, just as light is always stronger than darkness. And as we all know, darkness is just¬†the absence of light.


jesus died for friendship. will you?


Few people realize how much Jesus actually valued friendship. Before he went to the cross, Jesus said to his disciples in John 15:13, There is no greater love than to lay down one‚Äôs life for one‚Äôs friends.” This is an¬†intimate glimpse¬†into the heart of Jesus. As the nails were piercing¬†through his hands and his feet, no doubt, Jesus thought about you and me, he thought about the world he was saving, he thought about those who would believe in him after… but as he hung on the cross, I bet you that Jesus thought about Peter, James and John–his closest disciples, his best¬†friends.

Jesus values friendship. He went to the cross for it.

Can you imagine how heart-wrenching it was for Jesus to learn¬†that Peter would deny him three times? Three and a half years of ‘doing life’ with his disciples, and now one of the ones¬†closest¬†to him, the disciple¬†who confessed that¬†Jesus was the Christ the Son of the Living God–now, Peter, would go on to deny he ever even knew Jesus. Not just once, but three times. That’s a burned bridge if you ever saw one. Most people would consider that a definite end to a relationship.

But for Jesus, there is no end.

After¬†Jesus had risen¬†from the dead, the angels said to the women who came to the tomb, ‚ÄúDo not be alarmed. You seek Jesus of Nazareth, who was crucified. He is risen! He is not here. See the place where they laid Him. 7¬†But go, tell His disciples‚ÄĒand Peter‚ÄĒthat He is going before you into Galilee; there you will see Him, as He said to you.‚Ä̬†The very first thing Jesus was determined to do after his resurrection was¬†show Peter how willing He was to rebuild the bridge with him, i.e. to restore their relationship. That’s how much Jesus values relationship.

Are there any burned bridges in your life?

When it comes to marriage, we’ll often say, “Take counseling. Take classes. Do everything you can. Just don’t get a divorce.” And the same thing when it comes to our relationship with God, “Repent. Pray. Turn around. Just don’t forsake the Lord.” We know it is our responsibility to keep those bridges intact.

Yet, for some reason, when it comes to friendships… it’s okay to burn bridges. “This person offended me. Burn¬†that¬†bridge. This person spoke¬†behind my¬†back. Burn that bridge. This person betrayed me! Really burn¬†that bridge.”

We will spend a whole season of our lives building connection with someone, sharing our deepest secrets, and doing life together. Yet, when something happens that¬†creates¬†a riff between the two of us, we decide to burn the bridge¬†and¬†think we can just press “Reset” with someone new.

Friendships were not meant to last for only a season.

“There is no greater love than to lay down one‚Äôs life for one‚Äôs friends.”¬†Friendships go way beyond convenience. It’s the decision to say “Yes!” a thousand times over a period of decades that builds wealth in a relationship. It creates depth. Continue reading jesus died for friendship. will you?

apples and raisins

My happiness meter¬†is rising, one degree at a time. But it’s a different sort¬†of happiness.

There is also great happiness when I am doing something I love that brings me a sense of accomplishment and success, and also when I am with those I love, my friends and family, making connections with people and being active in different forms of service.

But this type of happiness is something I’ve missed for a long time.

It’s the joy of being alone, with God. Doing the simple things in life, like cutting vegetables, or reading a verse and letting it float around in your brain as you stick out your tongue and taste its sweetness, sweet like honey.

Having the time to take a walk or simply sit still and do nothing, think of nothing. Breathing and soaking in God’s presence. Being alone and¬†yet not alone…

I know this season won’t last forever. And it’s not meant to be. But this is my season of sitting in¬†His shade.

“I delight to sit in his [Jesus] shade, and his fruit is sweet to my taste. He has taken me to the banquet hall, and his banner over me is love.¬†Strengthen me with raisins, refresh me with apples, for I am faint with love.” ¬†(Song of Songs)

Yes, Lord. Let me eat and drink deeply now, so that I may be strengthened and equipped to respond in obedience when you call me out of this season. The time will come when I must arise to the challenge of whatever lies ahead.

“Arise, my darling! Come with me! To leap over mountains and bound over hills! Let us go to the mountain of myrrh!”¬†(Song of Songs)¬†

But for now, I will enjoy apples and raisins ūüôā

my first time: bethel healing rooms

This morning I went to the Bethel Healing Room (after my little ‘fiasco’ with the protein shake and¬†vomiting). What happens is
you fill out a form about¬†yourself and the type of physical healing you need. Then you are led to the hallway where 1-2 “prayer servants” immediately begin to share testimonies that stir up your faith and expectation, give words of knowledge about sicknesses, and heal people.

After that, your group is then led to the “ENCOUNTERING THE HEALER” room, where a teacher gives a short message about the character and heart of God as Healer, how He is a good Father who does¬†not use sickness or disease to discipline His children (just like we would never do that to our own children), how it doesn’t matter what the cause of the sickness or disease was (whether self-inflicted or not) because¬†it’s not about what we did but what Jesus has already done, and how NOW is the time of our salvation (e.g. healing, restoration, wholeness)¬†not tomorrow or in five years, but now.

Then, everyone is led into the main “ENCOUNTER” room, which is the main sanctuary. There is live worship, painting, dancing and a testimony booth. Chairs are arranged in a creative, swirly¬†fashion all around the room (not¬†in rows), centered around the painters in the middle.¬†Very artistic.

You’re encouraged to relax, soak and receive as prayer servants come over to you, look at your form to see what type of physical healing you need, and declare God’s healing over you. Singers sing prophetically, sometimes calling out specific sicknesses and diseases that God wants to heal in the room.

Once you have received prayer, you are encouraged to go to the “Great Room” to receive a message on “HOW TO STEWARD YOUR HEALING: WALKING IN DIVINE HEALTH.” Our teacher (she is 75 years old) was so flamboyant, cheerful and lively, it felt more like an interactive story play than a sermon.

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bad stuff goes out!

This morning, I woke up feeling really weak. I thought, “I have got to get some protein into my system!” So I went downstairs and shook up a cup of protein¬†powder mixed in water. Slowly, I drank it down, sip by sip. After a few minutes, the nausea got worse, and I felt like throwing up.

I knelt down on the floor and began to pray and read the Bible, hoping the discomfort would go away. I commanded the nausea to leave in Jesus’ Name. But the feeling¬†kept coming up.¬†Eventually, I went to my bathroom and got down on my knees¬†beside the toilet, with my head placed over the bowl ready to vomit at any minute.

Suddenly, I felt so lonely and homesick. I imagined if Ś™ĹŚ™Ĺ was here, how she would soothe me and bring comfort to me.

I was about to cry¬†when the¬†vomit came out. It was just brown water–the protein shake I had just drank. I hadn’t ingested much these past few days because of the Fast. But the water came out once, twice, three times.

Finally, when it was all done, I sat down and felt so much better. It’s a spiritual lesson too: Better to get the bad stuff out, than to hold it in and just try to ignore it. Eventually it comes out anyways.

Well, Good morning! ūüôā I’ve learned it’s better not to drink a protein shake (with just water) on an empty stomach. Now, time to go to the Bethel Healing Room!